My ED and BDD have been terrible the past few weeks, down to stress. Yesterday I was feeling much better, and actually ate lunch and dinner. But after, my daughter was tickling my back (which I love!) I was leaning forwards on the sofa with my sweater pulled up to expose my lower back and my OH thought it would be funny to pinch my belly he doesn't understand why I am upset, despite knowing how much I hate my fat bits. I don't think I have ever felt more rubbish in all my life, back to square one with a bump :'(
why am i so nervous for a phone interview?! i think it beacause i have had a 4-5 day stress headache so i slept in this morning on my day off which = less time to prepare! its at 3.30 - 4 so send me good vibes for then!
plus im having a bummer as i left my glasses at work yesterday and i need them for computer work stupid 30,60,90 day plans and a SWOT analysis is what im spending valentines doing
oh man i don't get the whole telephone interview thing, even telephone doctors appointments are awkward! good luck meeshy!
i can't stop pulling my eyelashes out again. SO DONE, I THOUGHT I COULD STOP
It's horrible isn't it! I get that it's good to speak to someone before you meet them formally but I hate hate hate it haha I have no idea what to say I'm totally brain dead too today
I've started pulling my eyebrows on an evening, didn't notice I did it til the other day :/
The council were meant to come here to do a flat inspection between 11am and 11.30am, and they still haven't shown up
My sisters dogs made laddered an destroyed my favourite pair of tights, I changed and they did it again, lol not really a moan but I have to catch the bus looking like a hooker with massive holes in them xD
I have a really bad cold just in time for weekend. I am hoping for a miraculous 5pm recovery :s
work this morning. not really a moan cause i need all the moneys i can get ready for the meet, BUT, story time:
back when i first started as a waitress there, there was this potwasher guy. really chavvy and ignorant and stared at me ALL THE TIME. he left about 2/3 months before i became a potwasher to finish college or some crap (i think he just couldn't be bothered). anyway, turned up to work last night and BOOM, here he is. so i'm like asking this waitress that's been here ages "why's he back.. on pots.. with me?" and apparently he's been given his job back for 2 months until he goes in the army or something. what, de flek. did i mention this guy is the boss' nephew? haha, hahaha, ha.
so, he's back. since there was 2 of us on, he offered to do pots while i did desserts *good thing* but i noticed how freakin' sh** he is at pots omg! way it goes, how we all do it: fill up a hot sink of soapy water, throw all the freakin pots in there that can fit so all the crap like sauces get soaked off, then take em out, spray the crap off and put em in the trays in potwasher. not that hard. nope his sink was full maybe like twice in the whole shift, and didn't even bother putting plates in it.. the point? no idea. so i wasn't busy on desserts and he was doing some jobs for the cooks so i went onto pots and filled up the sink, threw the plates in, washed a few tray-fulls then went back to desserts and i saw him just take the plug out and put the pots back on the side. like dafuuuq?! my LORD. and because he didn't soak em and wash them properly, all the pots he put through the potwash were mucky so had to be put back through so it took him like forever to wash like a full tray.
that aint even the worst. last night because he's so lazy and just stands staring into space he still had pots left at 10 when our shifts finished. about half 9 ish the cooks start giving us all the pans and stuff to wash and he didn't bother, just left them all. OH and who's on this morning that's got to clean all that up? push over-poh here, who never leaves any pots at all cause i'm the only one that gets moaned at for stuff like that. OBVIOUSLY this guy aint gunna get told off or anything like that because he's the boss' nephew. he's wa*k and i can't wait for him to be shipped far far away
I've spent all morning having a shower and making myself look pretty but I have nothing to do, no-one to see and no-where interesting to go... now I'm sitting in bed like 'now what?!'
Could go to park with the famo I live with but then again my weekend is my time off duty from the kid :p hmmmm
ok so i moved from wales to swindon last year in june to live with my OH as we had been together 3 years and had a long distance relationship. we wanted to move things forward by living together. the problem was i had to move into his mothers house with him coz neither of us could afford to get our own place. this wasnt a big problem at the time coz i wanted to be closer to him and this was the only way it was going to happen. so i moved in and the first month was good i love living with him even tho it wasnt our own place. then a month later his mothers boyfriend moved in. he started changing things around the house doing things his way an moaning about anything an evreything. my OH and his brother used to have friends round every now and again to play on the xbox or to watch football games and stuff. at first her bf was moaning about it then he started sitting in his car for 5+ hours just because there was people in the house. he moans about everything and its a very uncomfortable situation to live in. the other day he says to my OH's brother that hes going to a solicitor to report him for harassing him! all my OH's brother did was write 'hate living with a t**t' on his facebook.
then last night he comes in and says 'you have til the 1st of march, we are signing papers tomorrow to move out' WTF!!! now all 3 of us are going to be homeless by the end of the month. my OH's mother and her bf dont give a crap where we go. im scared coz we cant afford our own place still and didnt ever think i would be in this situation. i hate this guy and my OH's mother is just as bad! *censored*
I had a massive anxiety breakdown & panic attack this morning. I feel pathetic and stupid and embarrassed. And now I have a tummy ache
ok so i moved from wales to swindon last year in june to live with my OH as we had been together 3 years and had a long distance relationship. we wanted to move things forward by living together. the problem was i had to move into his mothers house with him coz neither of us could afford to get our own place. this wasnt a big problem at the time coz i wanted to be closer to him and this was the only way it was going to happen. so i moved in and the first month was good i love living with him even tho it wasnt our own place. then a month later his mothers boyfriend moved in. he started changing things around the house doing things his way an moaning about anything an evreything. my OH and his brother used to have friends round every now and again to play on the xbox or to watch football games and stuff. at first her bf was moaning about it then he started sitting in his car for 5+ hours just because there was people in the house. he moans about everything and its a very uncomfortable situation to live in. the other day he says to my OH's brother that hes going to a solicitor to report him for harassing him! all my OH's brother did was write 'hate living with a t**t' on his facebook.
then last night he comes in and says 'you have til the 1st of march, we are signing papers tomorrow to move out' WTF!!! now all 3 of us are going to be homeless by the end of the month. my OH's mother and her bf dont give a crap where we go. im scared coz we cant afford our own place still and didnt ever think i would be in this situation. i hate this guy and my OH's mother is just as bad! *censored*
Wow that really sucks the same thing happened to my friend, his mother got a new boyfriend who tried to attack his mother when he was drunk so my friend (the son) hit him back, broke his nose trying to protect his mother. But she took her boyfriends side and he got kicked out. I don't understand why mothers would take anyone's side over thierry own children.
I hope everything works out for you though.
thank you xx yeah its horrible. my OH talked to his mother about it today and she basically played down what her bf said. they arent actually moving out at the end of the month but they are seriously looking for a new place. so basically my OH said we need at least a months notice if your gona move out so we have a decent chance of sorting something out.
we also talked to a friend who wants to move out from his mothers house anyways and would be willing to find a place with us to make it easier on all of us money wise. because at the moment my OH is looking for work and having a hard time finding anything. so me and our friend both have jobs and can go half and half on the rent while my OH uses his JSA for the other things.
so its not as urgent of a situation as we first thought but we are still gona try are best to find somewhere cheap enough that we can move before they have a chance to chuck us out xx
My mum's coworker has been copying my mum for a few months now - wearing Converse to work, putting her hair into two braids etc. Now her daughter is copying me - she stopped eating meat and dyed the ends of her hair green. What is this? :O
I'm so ready to leave this house. So, SO ready. But the moving date has been put back a week.