Have A Good Old Moan....

I could not hate my ex-husband more than I do at this very moment  🙁

What part of the South are you in? you haven't messed anything up. It isn't you're fault, the sooner you see that the sooner you'll be back home =]

South East, so really far away. =(
I suppose you (and everyone else who's been telling me the same thing day in day out) are right, it's just very hard to see. I'm very unhappy with so much right now and find it so hard to be interested in things I used to love. It feels like my mind's disintegrated, my reading ability has suddenly plummeted too.

Just been in a bit of a rut since yesterday, because my crisis team didn't visit. They still consider me an 'emergency' but they've stopped visiting me every day. (But not before they confiscated or made my parents hide almost anything that could possibly be a danger to me that was in the house) Obviously I don't look like I'm enough risk to myself for them to bother. It sounds selfish and stupid, but that made me feel really upset. The way they treated me yesterday really came close to making me just quit it, I spoke to a guy who was an absolute arse and just told me a load of crap about the colour of his urine - wish this wasn't a joke - and to drink milk rather than water or I'd get dehydrated (I'm vegan...?!) and told me how busy he was then hung up. Great way to make someone feel good about themselves. I really struggle with phones too, I only recently got back into taking and making calls from my personal mobile (convinced all the others are rigged) but I still feel really anxious about using that unless I really, really have to, so it was just a load of stress for nothing.

Sorry, I always come on here and whine, but I don't really have many friends (can count them on one hand) irl, and one of them is a gerbil so whilst she's a great listener, she's not very responsive. =<

South East, so really far away. =(
I suppose you (and everyone else who's been telling me the same thing day in day out) are right, it's just very hard to see. I'm very unhappy with so much right now and find it so hard to be interested in things I used to love. It feels like my mind's disintegrated, my reading ability has suddenly plummeted too.

I know I and many others will never really understand what's going on in your head, and its not like you can just me like, 'oh yeah, i hadnt thought not to think like that y'know, I'll do that now, he presto Im better!'

And  get that it can get annoying and frustrating when people just dont understand that you cant stop and get angry or make you sound stupid for doing it. I used to self harm and was borderline anorexic/bulimic, although I was never diagnosed, I wouldnt eat for days, meticulously counted calories, binged on food then threw it up. These problems went on for a few years. Even when my boyfriend asked me out, he didnt understand why I still hurt myself if I was happier, or why I wouldnt eat, even if I was starving. (annoyingly he made me eat, now I eat to much and miss the way I was)

I got angry and frustrated when people asked why I dont just stop and 'be normal' aghh it was so annoying!!! making me angry now. and hearing what you said about that phone call, what is that about?! sorry, having my own rant now! haa

is south east near london ish? if so you're welcome to come over and play with my hedgehog =) she'll love you. im sorry things aren't very good for you ouse, but you're an amazing girl & with time you'll start to feel better. hugs and kisses xxxxxx

We're all here for you mouse and hope that you get feeling a bit better in time (hugs) a few of us on here are recoverers from various different mental health issues so you're not alone xxx

For me the worst lately is that my husband and i are on different work shifts - I'm asleep, he's at work, he comes home to sleep, I'm at work. I can't believe I'm starting to miss someone I live in the same house with, but yeah. Things could be worse, I know, I just wish we could have meals together more often! I'm hoping it'll resolve itself soon though, we're working something out.

Mouse I hope you feel better soon. It's so hard to cope with your own thoughts and I know it can really take a toll thinking about so many things that make us feel bad. But I agree with everyone, just trying to go through the motions of things that used to interest you (even if they don't interest you anymore) helps. Sending you good vibes and check it out, so many forum members are concerned about you and wish you well. 🙂

*hugs* Mouse, we're all here for you, any time.  Feel free to vent in this thread, or send a PM, or anything.  You haven't done anything wrong, and you haven't messed anything up.  If it's difficult to escape into a book, try watching some films to take your mind off of things. Tuesday will be here before you know it.

We all love you Mouse and this thread is the place to leave moans, so moan away 🙂 sometimes it's just good to get it all out where you won't be judged.

Every silver lining has a cloud. Found out High Barnet where we're moving, has the worlds most rubbish internet connection and I might not be able to stream Netflix etc while I'm working.... Noooooo

Such a pathetic moan really... lol

Janineb I can't believe how bad the internet is in some places in England still! Seriously!

My moan is a pretty big one - things just got a whole lot harder on the immigration front for me and my boyfriend. We're currently living and working in Canada and hoping to live out here for an extended period of time, and the most direct route for doing that just fell through because my boyfriend's work won't help him get a visa. 🙁

My mum, right down at the lizard point in Cornwall has better reception than in a lot of parts of London! It's London for heavens sake.

Good luck with the visa, I know at least two or three of us here have had issues in one way or the other with that!

Visa sound so much more difficult than they should be 🙁

My moan isn't a big one but at the same time it's definitely worth moaning - someone frequently blocks the toilets at work, I just don't get it, they have a powerful flush! I have no idea who it is or what the hell the eat or if they just use an entire toilet roll but it's just gross. I feel sorry for the poor cleaners, they're most likely paid the least and they have to sort it out, not fair.

Janine why don't you try a dongle or something? You can't get unlimited on them but you can get 15 gig which 3 can cap so you don't go over your bill. If you want me to check your coverage pm me your postcode! #sales person
Haha

also EE kick out pretty good MBs, so check them out also =)

but yes i do move alot. ryan loves moving, cos he is crazy!

my happy is im off till 12th feb now =D wicked tomorrow, then acking/moving/ordering hair dyes & a new piercing also hopefully.

so i've had a good few days image wise, and today has been good for the most part, realised my latest pair of leggings are now a little baggy on me, which may not be seen as a good thing to others but, to me it's a happy. but today i've had really bad tummy aches, like the ones i had when i had ulcers and it makes me really hungry so i eat and have something in there to stop it hurting so much (if that makes sense) and i've ignored it all day until now and just had some corn snack crisps and a hot chocolate and i feel like utter s***. i know for a fact tomorrow will be a bad day..

just hope new piercings can help a little, having my layers put back in my hair and having the ends cut after over a year of refusing to let anyone near it sort of cheered me up so..