Have A Good Old Moan....

Ah god so annoyed, I've had purple hair for two weeks, and now my friend has decided she wants purple hair, she copied my red hair too. Shes bought a feria dye to go over her red, so it's not going to be as bright as mine 🙂 I know I sound like a bitch, but it's so annoying she copies everything I do 🙁 she doesn't try to be herself. Anyone have friends like that?

^All the time.
My best friend used to be set on the idea that I was punk (which I'm not, I just know some people from the punk "scene" and listen to the music sometimes), so she decided she had to be better than me - got a punk boyfriend, started dyeing her hair and buying these ridiculous clothes while listening to pop music.
Now she's all hardcore because I used to be into the hardcore scene, and she's gotten nerd glasses because I have them, still having to be better than me (I have glasses from a brand called Vogue, hers are Calvin Klein).
And she used to copy my struggles with my eating habits of all things. I had issues with my body image in 2011, and when I felt like shit because I hadn't eaten in a few days and still felt "fat", she'd go and say "Oh wow, I'm feeling so accomplished, I hardly ate anything in the last 2 weeks and lost 2 kg!"

(I guess I just made a moan post?!)

Anyway, you don't sound bitchy to me, I know how it feels and I love that feeling when your hair/outfit/whatever just comes out so much better lol

my boyfriend is coming to visit me in 2 weeks... his timing could not be any worse >.<

Psychiatrist appointment tomorrow and really bad intrusive thoughts and voices today. Today's just been terrible in general to be honest. Part of me just wants to give up and ask them to hospitalise me. I don't want to be here any more.

My wisdom teeth are currently trying to excavate their way out of my face. Problem is is that they're both horizontal and still inside my jaw bone. Fun times. If they keep hurting I have to get referred for an operation to chisel them out of my jaw bone. (I had two out the same way a couple of years ago, I was awake, but sedated on ketamine, it was halarious and terrifying at the same time)

Psychiatrist appointment tomorrow and really bad intrusive thoughts and voices today. Today's just been terrible in general to be honest. Part of me just wants to give up and ask them to hospitalise me. I don't want to be here any more.

*hugs* If you feel that badly, then maybe a hospital is the best thing for you x  Be honest with your doctor today--he can't help you properly if he doesn't know how bad it is.  Good luck.

(Basically just copying from my tumblr, too anxious to write it all again)

I get to meet my new psychiatrist in an hour. AN HOUR. Freaking out. So scared I can’t move from my bed. Already done almost a whole hour of compulsive list making and scratching and counting but I’ve still got another hour so plenty of time for more. Why treat a partially anxiety based / paranoid condition with a situation that involves sitting with a stranger in a strange room for 90 minutes? I know it’s supposed to get me an updated diagnosis but I want to die right now. Both my voices (found a new one two days ago) are going nuts because I have no control and I just don’t know what to do and help me. I’m so scared.

I really feel for you, I had a major freak out when I had to see a different psych. They hadn't told me, I just turned up and it was a different person. The only bit of advice I have to offer is what my counsellor suggested. If I have to do something which makes me anxious I should just keep telling myself "it's only an hour/30 minutes/day" out of my life.

As you know, nothing takes away the whole panic it's just finding that way to get through the worst of it. I agree with Intemp, you really need to be honest with them so they have the full picture and can help you start to feel better x

i hope it went well mouse *hugs, glittery kisses & well wishes*

Mouse, I hope it all goes well! x

Also. My friend is the weirdest.
Her boyfriend's on vacation and she's angry because he sent her this really nice text (?!), and now she feels like she depends on him too much because she always wants to know where he is and what he's doing and she doesn't go out without him anymore.
And this is all my fault because she's jealous since I don't have/want a relationship because most guys my age have a terrible attitude towards girls, so I'm free to spend my time cooking, reading, hanging out with friends, going to concerts and so on.
Yep, I'm totally just "bitter and jealous and so masculine, omfg" because I told her to just switch her phone off and get out of the house if she's bored, suggesting she could go out with me and another friend on Friday.
Damn.

strange people naomi 😛

my moans: can't find any cheek bars, the tongue bar i was gunna buy my boyfriend for his birthday is out of stock in his size, i'm unwell cause of these antibiotics and also mum is being so damn confusing she used to moan cause i never ever spent any of my wages on anything cause i was being tight, now i've bought a fair few stuff for myself and she's all "well, it's your money you're spending, you'll have none left just a warning, you need to pay for driving lessons yadadadadadadadada"

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Bleach bathed my hair again, thought I'd do the top part first as its darker. So I did that, and I've ended up with very light roots, light blue middle and lilac ends. I honestly wish I had never ever dyed my hair turquoise I feel like it won't go 🙁 honestly its worse than atomic pink on my hair.
So now I have the only dye I have in my house, directions lavender, on my hair all over.
So my hair is going to be bright lavender, then mucky gross colour over the blue, then darker lavender.
🙁 🙁

my skin has been fine over the last few months. Just my luck it has to flare up the day before graduation 🙁 Any overnight treatments that work and will clear up some spots by tomorrow?!

Toothpaste dries them out, that's one i remember.

Soluble aspirin is good for reducing swelling! Mix a tiny bit of water with it to make a paste and sleep with it on. Has a hit rate of about 75% for me - if I've tried to pick the spot it doesn't work as well.