Have A Good Old Moan....

i'm a elbower i sneeze into it as well if im mid serve =) tis totally gros though intemp. i hope she buggers off soon

I always try to cough/sneeze into my elbow - doesn't work too well with bronchitis though because I tend to pull my arm up too quickly and hit myself in the face 🙁

My moan is that I'm sick, my throat is really sore and swollen, I have random coughing fits and I've basically been sneezing all day 🙁 Worst part is I have to drag myself to school tomorrow & Wednesday because I've got a presentation and an oral exam in Spanish - no me gusta nada because I'm not too sure if I'll survive this week.

People coughing onto their hands in general makes me want to puke! I literally want to gag when I serve people at work after they've coughed into their hands, I spend my whole shift washing my hands!

I've always coughed or sneezed into my arm so I don't have to touch others with it afterwards. BLERGH.

Some of you may remember from my moan a few weeks ago that I've been feeling quite down about my business lately, and about the impossibility of saving up a decent chunk of money to invest in higher levels of stock.  So I decided to be proactive and think about a business loan.  I also decided that I had nothing to lose by approaching my parents first on the off chance they could loan me the money before I went down the route of a bank loan (and the resulting interest!).  So on Friday I called my parents and spoke to my mother about the possibility of a loan, making it clear that I was only asking them on the off chance they'd be willing to help me before I applied for a bank loan, and that if the answer was no, that was of course, absolutely fine, but it was worth asking.  My mother rang me back on Saturday and told me that she will give me the money in April/May this year.  I know at this point you're all probably saying 'where's the moan? Surely that's good news?!', so here it comes:  She also told me that I have to prove my father wrong, as he believes that my business will never get off the ground and it will never be a valid source of income.  That pretty much was like a punch in the gut to me.  Completely took the shine off the good news, and now I feel pretty much useless.  I know I shouldn't give a toss about my father's opinion and that he doesn't know what he's talking about, but to hear that your parent has absolutely no faith in you whatsoever is a really disheartening and depressing thing!

EDIT: This makes me sound really ungrateful and moany, but I'm honestly not! I am so, so grateful that my mother believes in me enough to invest in my business, but the admission that my father doesn't feels like a wallop in the gut!

Mindi, at the risk of sounding corny... put that negative energy into doing just that, proving him wrong. VERY wrong!

A lot of people are really nervous about small business. He most likely just wants the best for you, and in his mind that's having a steady job and earning a definite wage. Seeing how the job market has changed so dramatically in the last 20 years, it's hard as someone of our generation to grasp that mind set in the same way I think. Especially as they are the generation that were told they can be whatever they want to be, and passed the same idea on to us. I wouldn't be at all surprised if this is what his doubt is stemmed from.

You can do it!

I agree with Janineb Mindi, it sucks that your dad is being so pessimistic, but your mum seems to believe in you. Maybe in a weird way he was trying to encourage you to put the effort in.

My moan is also work related. I found out I'm losing my temp job at the end of this week, the perfect job I had an interview for decided to go with someone else, and the woman I had a good connection with at the temp agency I used to work for is on long term leave so may not be able to get any work that way...a whole lot of bad luck in less than a week! Feeling pretty disheartened now. Job hunting is the worst. I feel like I've been constantly job hunting ever since I graduated, and that was 2008!

I agree, Mindi, I think your dad is probably thinking that you have a steady source of income and you're going out on a limb and it's better to be safe than sorry (follow your head, not your heart sort of thing), but you can absolutely prove him wrong!

Thank you for the support ladies! I am feeling a little more positive today, and I am absolutely determined that I'm going to prove my dad wrong!  However, I suspect that it is more than him just being pessimistic about the chances of a small business succeeding in the current economic climate, or being dubious about me leaving a full time job with a steady income for self-employment and no guarantees of income (even though I don't anticipate actually leaving my full time job for at least 18 months to 2 years after I've put the investment into the business!).  My parents had my sister and me late in life, and they are now both in their 70's, so they are, in fact, of the generation of most of my peer's grandparents.  My father is very conservative, and he has never quite been able to reconcile who I am (tattoos/piercings/alt hair, etc) with his own conservative ideals of what 'normal' and 'successful' look like.  My mother tends to be more accepting of me, and seems to be able to look past my appearance, but my father has never been happy about the paths I've chosen in my life.  He worked in computers, and would have been much happier if I had chosen a career in the sciences or in IT (my sister works in IT, which he approves of), but I chose more artistic paths, which he doesn't consider to be 'proper' careers.  I suspect this is more of an extension of his own prejudices, since the self-employment I want to pursue is centred around 'alternative' cultures, which he doesn't understand at all.  I guess I've reached a point in my life where I have to say that I am nearly 35, and I have to draw a line in the sand and resign myself to the fact that my choices in life are not ones that my father has ever been happy about, but it is not his life to make those choices on, it's mine, and whether or not he likes it, this is the career I want!

Why the hell am I awake this early?! My fiance had better be attracted to zombies because this is not going to look pretty. Haven't left bed in days and he wants me to trek over to his house. Trains are really bad for me right now so I'm going to take as much diazepam as possible and pass out on his bed as soon as I get there. I know he's concerned and wants to see me (and he can't come to mine because my father won't let him in the house) but holy crap I just want to sleep all day.

GODD this turquoise will never leave my hair :(:( it's like a 2" chunk at the top if my head! Looks like ill be bleach bathing for AGES 🙁 ugh. And thank goodness I used coconut oil, I poured in 40 vol peroxide into my bleach bath 🙁 hair seems to be fine though. Luckily I noticed before doing my roots and diluted it down a stupid amount.

Nothing major. My week off work is nearly over 🙁

I'm not at school today because I have the flu...I feel like a zombie 🙁

Evie's being so naughty today and I told her to calm down and she swung a bag around and knocked a full mug of drink all over the ps3 and the wireless modem 🙁

I'm on work experience this week at a vet surgery. Had to go home early yesterday as I had chronic stomach ache and back ache and kept feeling sick, had to keep going off to the bathroom in case I was. They were really nice about it at the vets, they more or less told me to go home anyway.

Still wasn't any better today, it has eased off last night and then started up again in the early hours of the morning. I had to ring in and say I couldn't go in today 🙁 I feel really bad about it as I wanted to make a good impression in the hope I could persuade them to allow me to extend my work experience to maybe one day a week or one day a fortnight. Feel like I've just ruined my chances of that now.

Also, if I can't make it in tomorrow then that will mean I only managed to do 2 days of work experience, don't know if they'll let me rearrange it for another time 🙁

According to someone in my feedback 2 and a half weeks is "forever".